Nota Hari Ini ~ 18

Hidup adalah pinjaman mencari dimana letaknya KASIH & BAHAGIA; biar kekal mekar & mengharum hingga tiba langkah ke alam syurgawi.

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Dinihari di Bulan Ramadhan

Dingin angin malam terasa hingga ke tulang
Disaat dunia leka dibuai mimpi indah
Muslim bangun untuk mendapat barakah
Dalam kepayahan meninggalkan tempat beradu
Si ibu menyediakan juadah
Si bapa mengejutkan anak-anak
Bersama-sama bangkit mencari redha Ilahi
Sahur penuh tertib
Bersama seisi keluarga dirumah
Bersama rakan-rakan bagi yang sedang bertugas
Biarpun kadang kala sendirian
Muslim tetap bersama-sama
Memanjat syukur kepada Yang Esa
Masih bernafas untuk merai Ramadhan
Mengambil berkat asuhan Rasulullah
Mengumpul pahala berlipat kali ganda
Demi masa akan datang yang pasti tiba
Indahnya dinihari di bulan Ramadhan
Dalam kedinginan diberikan kenikmatan
Biar tidak jelas dimata
Asal membantu di hari pengadilan
Wallahualam

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Sahabat & Cinta Hati

Syukur, alhamdulillah!! Dalam usia menjangkau ke angka 32.. aku boleh berbangga menyatakan aku punya sahabat. Bukan 1 bukan 2 tp ramai. Allah serikan hidup aku yg serba tidak sempurna dengan sahabat yang ramai. Susah, senang, gembira & duka bersama. Syukur yang tidak terhingga!!

Tak perlu aku nyatakan siapa mereka pada umum. Mereka sendiri akan membaca entry ini dan tersenyum kerana mereka tahu mereka adalah sahabat aku & aku juga adalah sahabat mereka. Mereka adalah keluarga kedua ku. Mereka adalah penasihat-penasihat tersohor ku. Setiap kali tersilap langkah, mereka akan bersama aku membantu aku untuk berdiri dan berjalan di laluan yang betul. Setiap kali aku bergembira mereka sering ada untuk bersama-sama denganku meraikan kejayaan aku tidak kira kecil atau besar. Dan sebagaimana mereka ada untukku.. aku juga pasti akan ada untuk mereka. Tidak kira apa jua situasinya. Insya-Allah.

Dalam aku menjejak titian cinta hidup.. aku punya angan-angan. Aku mahu cinta hati ku itu juga adalah sahabat ku. Kerana kasih sayang antara sahabat lebih tulus dari kasih sayang kepada kekasih. Pernahkah kita meminta sahabat kita mengubah dirinya sepertimana yang kita mahu?! Tentu sekali tidak. Mungkin ada teguran yang dibuat tetapi jika tidak dipatuhi adakah tali persahabatan itu akan putus? Tidak! Tentu sekali tidak!! Kerana bila bersahabat kita menerima mereka seadanya mereka. Tiada lebih - tiada kurang. Sebagai sahabat aku mahu cinta hati aku menjadi dirinya sendiri.. sebagaimana sifat itulah yang membuahkan rasa kasih itu terhadapnya.. Dan sebagai kekasih aku mahu mengasihinya selama mana yang di izinkan Tuhan.. :)

~ Tak rugi menjadi sahabat kepada sang kekasih kerana persahabatan itu utuh dirantai keikhlasan yg di kurniakan oleh Allah ~

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Pohon Sumbangan & Derma Ikhlas

Dari FB : Fynn Jamal

assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakaatuhu.

nama saya fynn jamal, dan saya meminta jasa baik sesiapa sahaja yang sudi untuk membantu saya mencari dana untuk anakanda saya Bakti Arjuna Fitri untuk pembedahan jantung.

kami perlu mencari rm 35 ribu dalam masa terdekat ini sebelum jantung anakanda saya bengkak. anakanda saya berumur 1 bulan 2 minggu dan besarlah harapan saya kalau2 ada sesiapa yang sudi menderma walau sekecil mana. jenis pembedahannya adalah seolah bypass di mana dadanya akan dibuka utk memperbetul lubang di jantungnya.

kalau mahu diganti, berilah nama dan jumlah. saya berjanji akan memulangkan wang tuan / puan bila saya ada wangnya. insyaAllah sebelum hujung tahun ini.

panjang2kanlah rayuan saya ini. moga2 ada yang dapat membantu kami anak beranak.

Boleh transfer antara 3 akaun berikut :-
1. (MBB) 164810008992 nur affina yanti binti jamalludin ~ Fynn Jamal
2. (MBB) 105104050530 hazrilfitri hadzir ~ Suami Fynn Jamal
3. (MBB) 564276053946 Mohammad noh bin salleh ~ Sahabat Karib Fynn Jamal

terima kasih.
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Belasungkawa Buat Kamu

Tiada titipan terindah
Yang biasa aku coret
Buat tatapan kamu lagi
Masa mengubah posisi
Impian semakin samar
Tiang itu tidak lagi kukuh berdiri
Di kaca mata ku
Kamu berperang
Dunia kamu penuh angan-angan
Bisik palsu menutup mata
Zahirnya kamu alpa
Tidak semua dalam gengaman
Kerana penentu adalah Yang Esa
Bangunlah!!
Bangkitlah!!!
Sedarlah kamu dari lena
Pijaklah dunia nyata
Aku tidak lagi mampu
Melihat kamu terus leka
Dihanyut arus pura-pura

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Beyond Perfection

Sometimes I feel that fate is playing hard games on my life.. and God is really tease me off with my love life. For a second I thought that this time it would be different. The flow of the story is different. It feels different. This might be a bogus word.. but yes! This time it is far beyond perfection. I’ll tell you why..

My life has been trembling down for the past one and a half years.  My financial situation is in very deep shit. I’m still struggling to be out of this mess for I know that it took half of my spirit away. I love my job but my boss and half of my colleague is pulling me down. Not giving me the chance to shine.. and I’m struggling my ass off to fit in this working environment. That is working with bunch of donkeys! 

Then I met this one very stunning lady. I assumed that she was checking on me. “Hey!! Why not? Just give it a try!!” I said to myself. I have nothing to lose. So, we became friends. One hell of a great friendship I must say. Sharing stories; one after another. Teasing each other off. Always knocking out our imaginations wall to the next level. Yes, I admit it! I can’t live a day without talking to her. I hope that I haven’t make her bored with me.. well that is one thing that makes me freak out. Somewhere between that, I fell for her. This time I fall hard. Very hard. 

The negative part is I did try to convey my feelings towards her. Not once, not twice but plenty of time. But she keep it cool.. and I have no idea whether she noticed every single signs of it or not. She don’t really respond to it directly. I keep on picking up details of her every time we spoke. The do’s and the don’ts, her preferences, her wisdom, her passion, her good side and her flaws.. every single thing that she shared with me. Sweetheart.. each bits of you has been diluted into my brain, thru my veins and stored directly in my heart. I love you for who you really are. The beautiful way you are as a person. 

Here comes the best part! This is not the 1st time I been playing hard-to-get game. With all the love I have for her, I still don’t have any clue how she feels about me. Seriously she plays a large role in molding my everyday’s mood. Sometimes I feel that she doesn’t understands me. But I’m pretty sure she can figure me out. It’s just her response are very intensely slow. That freaks me out. Seeing her status messages, sometimes break me into pieces. Yet, there’s just no anger in me seeing all that. Yes, I hate it but there’s no anger. Just a small part of jealousy I guess, thinking how I wish all of that sweet words are for me. Sigh! Hard ya’??! Well.. this is love my friend. Trust, faith, tears, pain, argument, patience, secrets, jealousy and fights are elements of love and relationships. 

Back to the main issue here, with part of my life is still unstable and my love life is totally haywire; I still have this very uniquely peaceful sound in my heart. A very tranquil and indescribable feeling that makes me love her more every single day and the calmness of this feeling makes my brain have the ability to think ways to overcome my other problems in life. This is what I meant by beyond perfection. It is not actually perfect but it fits everything in a such beautifully perfect way. 

Just Sharing...

These few days.. I've been sharing some of the love poetry which catches my eyes thru the internet. They are very intensely great writers.. Their poems are very sweet, full of heart.. Everytime I read such art I felt the emotions.. Tender, sweet, loving & care..

Do enjoy it as much as I do... :)

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Today You're Here

Today you're here, tomorrow you're gone.

My love, my life is moving on.

We both have things we have to do.

Will I find you when they are through?

I was so lonely for so long,

Then one night you came along.

My sad heart sang a joyful song,

Cause then I knew where I belong.

I'm facing months where we're apart,

Alone but in each other's heart

I pray to God I'll not lose you

'cause life without you'd just be blue.

Today you're here, tomorrow you're gone.

My love, my life is moving on,

We both have things we have to do.

Will I find you when they are through?

So get your life back, lose your past.

I'll work things so I'm free at last.

Until I see your smile again,

I'll face each day with untold pain

Till you and I are we I'll hope,

That with this emptiness I'll cope.

My love for you's so deep and true,

I won't be whole till I'm with you.

Alone tomorrow I'll miss you so,

What people see from me's a show.

To join you soon's for what I'll pray

Cause I'm just living for that day.

«~ wm_sexspear ~» 

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My Whole Life..

My whole life, I've dreamed of a great love. Of a love that will somehow complete me. Of a love that will reunite me with the other half of my soul. Of a love that will consume me until I'm helpless to do anything but give myself to it. I have yet to find such a love, or have it find me. At times, I wonder if that kind of love truly exists. If it's not some fairy tale that we're told as young children to make us think the world is a wonderful place that's full of love and hope and fulfilled dreams. Yes, I have loved. But I have never been in love. I've never known anyone that made my heart skip a beat each time they uttered my name. Or cause me to lose my breath just by the sight of them walking into a room. Or make my knees grow weak by just one touch, whether it's a sensual one or not. Or cause the world to disappear when our eyes meet across a crowded room. Or be able to communicate with just a glance or a touch. Or felt that the safest place on Earth was in the arms of the one I love. Does that kind of love really exist? 

My whole life, I've lived around love gone wrong. I've been a witness to marriages being destroyed by another person. I've been a witness to people somehow falling out of love, and going their separate ways. I've been a witness to people, who once loved each other, hurt each other just out of spite. I've been a witness to people forgetting how to court their lovers, even when they think everything is good and there's no need to do it anymore. I've been a witness to lovers who got too busy and forgot what was the most important thing in life: their love for each other. If you truly love someone, how can you let that love die without a fight? 

My whole life, I've sat back and watched everyone else's mistakes. And I've learned from them. First and foremost, she'll be my friend. Because in bad times, our friendship will help keep us together and our love for each other will see us through it. My world won't revolve around my lover. My lover will be my world. I won't love her because I need her. I'll need her because I love her. I'll get down on my knees every day and thank any god that will listen for allowing me to share in a gift so unique that few get the opportunity to feel it. I'll do my best to keep her happy. But when she's not, I'll do my best to comfort her in any way I can. She can take comfort in knowing that I will stand up beside her, not in front of or behind, in good times and in bad. And that we will get through any situation if we stick together. I'll treat her like she's the queen, because in my world, she will be. I'll know when to back off and trust her if she wants to keep something secret. Because we all have secrets. I won't forget how to romance her. I'll surprise her with flowers, or cards, or simple little notes, telling her how much she means to me, especially when we've been together for awhile to keep the love strong. I'll tell her she's beautiful, especially when she feels she isn't at her best. But most importantly, I'll tell her I love her every day. And it won't matter who says "I love you" first. Just as long as it's said and felt. How can someone forget things like this, when to me it all seems so simple?

My whole life, I've dreamed of a great love. I've dreamed of the ability to find my tree among the forest. I've dreamed of the day that I'd meet my soul mate. Will my dreams ever come true? Will I be able to prove my love for her will never be destroyed? Will I look into the eyes of my lover and see my future? Who knows? But I hope with all my heart that one day, my fairy tale will come true. Has yours?

«~ StormyNite ~» 

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All I Want

I don't ask for much

but what I want is something money can't buy.

All I want is to wake up with you in my arms

to start a new day where the first thing I glance upon is you.

All I want is to gaze into your beautiful green eyes

to see your soul reach out to me in ways we've never experienced before.

All I want is to feel your lips upon mine

to feel your tongue glide against mine... fighting for domination I willingly give you.

All I want is to feel your heart against mine

to feel it beat out the same rythym as my own.

All I want is to prove how much I love you

to show you our love goes beyond all reason.

All I want is to hold your hand

to let you guide me by my own hand, as well.

All I want is to worship you day and night

to treat you like the queen you are.

All I want is to dream with you

to dream of a life without pain.

All I want is to see your smile

to see you joyful and happy.

All I want is to make a life with you

to make a life where anything is possible.

All I want is to love you forever

to make my fairy tale come true.

I don't ask for much

but what I want is something only you can give.

«~ StormyNite ~» 

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Love Full Of Lust

Have you ever feel..
There's so much attraction?
Each words that came out
Each eyes connection
Each touch
Make you hunger for more
Where all the sudden lust aroused around you?

Have you ever feel..
You love someone so much
Which never in a second they slipped out of your mind
From the moment you wake up..
Till the moment you close your eyes
And hoping you'll meet in dreams?

Have you ever feel..
Nothing of these confusing feelings
Are too soon to you
You're ready for the next step
Just waiting for the perfect moment
For that special person to fall and surrender to you
Giving her all to you
Just as you did for her

These sweet feelings
These sweet thoughts
These sweet surrender
When two person felt the same for each other
All of this..
Is just LOVE FULL OF LUST

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